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My Story: An Exclusive
Excerpt
I wanted to share with
you an exclusive excerpt of my book, “Journey to Malachi”. At
this point I am an adolescent who is still confused about the sexual
abuse I had encountered previously. My abuser, Mark has moved on to
another victim and I discover that I may not be his only victim. Read
below to see what happens and how I deal with the discovery:
More
kids moved onto the block and I began making
new
friends. Life was moving on and I had put everything
concerning
the matter behind me. Well as much as you
can
move on from such an issue without dealing with it.
Then
one day a game of ‘Truth or Dare’ went terribly
wrong.
There was a kid who lived on the block who
started
dealing with Mark shortly after I stopped. I would
see
him going in and out of the apartment, but he was
older
than me. Although it was uncomfortable and a bit
disturbing
to watch, I figured he would be alright. After
all
I had been lead to believe that the abuse didn’t just
happen
to me, but rather something in which I was an
running
around doing this “wrong” to people. He picked
me
because we were both gay. Right? As several of us
were
playing ‘Truth or Dare’ somehow this kid slipped
up
and admitted that Mark had “touched” him. The children
went
into uproar. Sadly, I had asked him if anything
strange
ever happened over there; and strangely he
admitted
that it did! My first thought was to admit what
happened
to me as well, but after I saw everyone’s reaction
I
was glad I didn’t. Deep down, I felt bad for leaving
him
out there alone, but I just couldn’t bear to deal with
it.
I was excluded from everyone? At the
time
it never occurred to me that the kid was in therapy
because
what Mark did was wrong. We all thought it was
because
something was wrong with him. This, of course,
was
because of my youthful ignorance, but it added
another
garment in my closet of shame.
already
smaller than everyone and effeminate in
nature
with a soft voice. I had enough personality traits
that
associated me with that lifestyle and trying to play
“hero”
for him wasn’t going to help.
As
life would have it, a cousin ended up telling the kids
parents
what he admitted that day. I never really knew
what
became of him. Suddenly I just remember that he
was
hardly seen outside again and his cousin said he was
in
therapy. Shortly after, Mark and his mother moved off
the
block; I didn’t really understand what had taken
place;
but I didn’t want it to happen to me. Who wanted
to
be in therapy and be excluded from everyone? At the
time
it never occurred to me that the kid was in therapy
because
what Mark did was wrong. We all thought it was
because
something was wrong with him. This, of course,
was
because of my youthful ignorance, but it added
another
garment in my closet of shame
Genre:
Biographical
Publisher:
Dog Ear Publishing
Blurb:
When
we face turbulent times, hardships and calamity there is much solace
in companionship. We all want to know that someone has been where we
are and have gotten through the same difficulties we face. When I
wrote Journey to Malachi, I began to visualize myself as a little boy
being abused and recalled all of the feelings that flooded my heart
at that time. My writing literally became a journey in my mind
through my life’s darkest hours and through my writings, I became
my own companion.
As
I wrote, I took several pauses to minister the words of hope, grace
and freedom that I needed.I went deep into my inner sanctum to find
the little boy who was afraid to tell his secret, who needed more
than anything to be loved and accepted and wanted more than anything
to be protected and valued. As the writings progressed, he grew
older and how the bitterness grew inside him and birthed inner
‘demons’ of self-hatred, insecurity, un-forgiveness,
hopelessness, distrust, suicide, anger, resentment and so much more.
I remembered the confusion the sexual abuse caused concerning his
sexual identity and the long-terms effects it had on his mental
health. I recalled the embarrassment and isolation all of the deep
pain that lied beneath a warm smile. He laughed and often made others
laugh but inside there was a fiery hell that tormented him and yet
this was only something he knew. He was so invisible in many ways and
so I begin to tell his story and share the shameful secrets of his
reality.In the midst of the journey, I interjected to share biblical
truths that would later free him (me). Even though his journey seemed
to grow darker and more hopeless, I had experienced the ending and so
I was encouraged to continue to write and get to the expected end.
Journey
to Malachi, is my journey from becoming a powerless victim to a
victorious over-comer! As a reader I invite you to share this
intimate journey with me embark to discover how I became a messenger
of light, liberty and love. Whether you have been through the same
things that I have or simply understand hard times, I plan to grab
your hand and become YOUR companion as well journey together to find
the divine purpose & ultimate overcoming victory that is wrought
from our utmost pains.
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